| Saturday, July 16th, 2005 |
| 5:52 am |
im insane.
i tried to get some sleep last night but was woken by silence. my power went out for some reason. anger is actually building up. i cant stand heat. and i think my laptop battery is gonna die soon too. oh yeah, and im also going insane. i only slept for a couple hours. im actually very tired but cant sleep in silence or heat. im in such a fowl fowl mood. i think im gonna start drinkin soon.... toodles |
| Thursday, July 14th, 2005 |
| 3:53 pm |
flowers sprout from her footsteps i smell the sweet now everyday everyfuckinday |
| Sunday, July 10th, 2005 |
| 10:08 pm |
its been awhile now hasnt it..... i dont feel so hot. |
| Friday, June 10th, 2005 |
| 10:20 pm |
you get 40% less wet in the rain if you walk.
dear you, i graduated tonight!!!yayy!!!i wanna celebrate though... i need somehwre eto go or somehitng. "what are you going to do with your future?" i have no idea. i am no interests that i have any urge to persue in school right now. I just am so indifferent sometimes, and i just dont know right now. its summer anways. whateverrrrrrrrrr. fuck it, 9ill just try to keep my head above water for a little while. |
| Wednesday, June 8th, 2005 |
| 3:37 pm |
dear you, irock i suck balls |
| Friday, May 20th, 2005 |
| 12:26 pm |
dear you, senior prom. i never thought that id regret not going but i already do.... whatever. |
| Sunday, April 3rd, 2005 |
| 3:42 pm |
frowns
i am miserable. Im getting in to my old habbits of losing my appetite real easy. great. i want everything to be better. now. i feel like dying and i need to get out of my house. hm, well i guess im gonna go cut my wrists and cry cry cry. i hope evrything gets better. it needs to. |
| Thursday, March 31st, 2005 |
| 9:07 pm |
wind chill factor
dear you, how is it possible for two poeple to be paranoid that the other doesnt like them? seems kinda silly. but it happens! youd think the other ones paranoia would re assure them....hmMmMmM well i havent written in this for a long while. probably caus ei think its stupid, but here i am yet again being a hypocrite. haha they blocked myspace at school cause it is supposibley "dating" and wrong to go to the sight....i hate my school so much. im not sure if im gonna graduate....i will though. OH, i will. i havent been writing as much as i used to be. Kinda sucks. I hate thinking about my future. Am i just trying to make myself feel better by acting like ill never have a boring desk job caged in a cubical whos climax of each day is when i get to play snood on my computer during lunch?ughhhh ill write more when i dont feel so lazy. for now thats all-- tootlessss! |
| Saturday, March 12th, 2005 |
| 11:40 pm |
oh boo hoo hoo cry cry pout pout your oh so smart! i cant comprehend your intricately formed sentences. wahh wahh everyones against me, all i feel is regret---oh cruel cruel world why am i bereft of your mercy?!?!?! why isnt anyone as smart as MEEEEEEE??? HA i really never had judged this one....Unfortunately, i made a small effort to be nice, reaosnable, understanding maybe? but okay. i guess i was wrong bout ya.oh well right? gonna be like that then so be it. if lashing and making fuss's and going about things in the most childish silly ways makes you feel content, then fine. hmmmmm seems like itd be alot easier to get things and talk to someone if some attempt to be courteous and civil was made but---oh wellllllllllllllllllll im just so frustrated!!!!no way can Iiiii be civil to such an un intelligent lab rat. harharharhohoho- it was funny. justify immaturity with frustration be the bigger person(?). we are dealing with a brainless idiot here......it really does suck though, i never tryed to have anything against you. in fact i figured that you wouldnt really ever act like you are. whatever....its stupid to talk about things like this after hope for even acquaintance status was ruined cause of you. oh and i know it was allll meeeeee and my oh so aweful aweful actions hahahohoharhar unnecessary drama is so humorous to me.dont talk to me.kthx. i quit livejournal for a lil, all this shit is stupid |
| Thursday, March 10th, 2005 |
| 1:02 pm |
fuck you fuck you fuck you |
| Tuesday, March 8th, 2005 |
| 11:02 pm |
dear you i hate livejournal and myspace. i think they are stupid. and i think that its usually a waste of time. so fuck you. |
| Friday, March 4th, 2005 |
| 10:43 am |
caseys the cutest sick girl i have EVER seen! |
| Saturday, February 26th, 2005 |
| 12:22 am |
plaque and pimples
clear those clouds light the urge no more minds of moment no more circles speak with truth speak certainty consistancy is a blessing as well as friends and lovers now cover yourself with blankets and warm up know you have it now dear you, live today like tommorow aint comin. its hard to forget about things, its hard to just act like shit never happened and its hard to not dwell on things. But what are you going to do then? sadness will always sleep in your spine but just destroy the desire for that which is impossible and accept what you get with a smile. sometimes you jmust cant deny that its half full- ya know? sometimes i wish i could open up alot easier...but its like i have some wall that i just put up ever since i leartned that trust is rare and that people can really decieve it with no guilt. i wish i could just be an open book and express things easier....but im not like that. B ut its getting easier with casey and stuff. Sooner or later i will be able to stop hiding and stop slapping a smile on my face just so i dont make people worry. i guess you cant force change though.... ramble ramble ramble good night....ill remember it |
| Thursday, February 24th, 2005 |
| 10:09 pm |
dear you, im in a bad mood. i am wide awake, but my stomach is being kid of weird... maybe case is getting sick of me or somehitng... well im grouchy and it sucks. if i have school tommorow i will be very upset---> :( |
| Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005 |
| 1:51 pm |
hvgauikj bh$%#@(I
im sitting in my in school suspention and it is absilutley horrible. I hate trac. i dont think i am going to write in here too much more, i think lj is most of the time pretty stupid. i am sooo tired...i didnt get like any sleep this weekend. I think i am getting the flu or somehitng too, my body is like really weak for no reason. well at least i get to see case today. Todays the day she is back from paris. i am so tired and have been sitting in the same room in silkence for so long that im going to go insane.they wont even let me sleep! |
| Monday, February 7th, 2005 |
| 11:12 pm |
hmmmm-i just snorted two aderal pills and am still very bored.....mine as well snort another huh i dont feel well should i drink? i have to go to the mall tommorow..... i hate my family and want to move out |
| 12:44 am |
tonight was a good night, but then again when isnt it when im with her? tommorow is senior cut day! sleeeeeeeep why in the hell do i even write in here? no one reallyt knows i have this lj thing- im kind of bored.....:( well anyways..... corey wuvs you and im gonna catch about an hour of sleep cause im expecting a call at 2 nightnightdreamofmedarlin |
| Monday, January 31st, 2005 |
| 10:11 pm |
dear you, i have a girlfriend. i am actually happy right now. hard to believe i know... my girlfriend is better then yours. dear boys, ill gut you if you touch her. love corey |
| 8:38 pm |
i had alot of fun this weekend with no regrets. none. you are so sweet. i believe you. no more frowns. start sleeping soundly. im yours. |
| 7:37 pm |
dear you, originally i had only made this account on here to post comments, but i suppose i could ramble and write worthless things as well. this weekend was a good one. i think for once i am actually content with things. Anyways.......dont waste your time reaidng anything that i write. love corey |
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